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11 August 2010 @ 01:07 am
- I had a busy week, which was weird because recently has been a lot of freaking out, being nervous about college and other things, and generally being a reclusive crazy person. I sort of forgot what it was like to have something to do every day or so, but it was nice to get out of the house and see people. I've spent so much of this summer being stressed about things, traveling, and thinking about college, it was nice to actually do things that were fun for a week. I think a lot of the sanity I scrapped together is based on the fact that I've been writing a lot recently which I wasn't able to do when stressing about stuff, thinking about college, and traveling (which caused by not writing, see the weird circle that happens there). It's really nice to be writing every day or so again, almost better then seeing people and going out a lot, but still both were nice and in return give me a lot to write about on here. So sit back, give up your thoughts of getting off the computer in 5 minutes or so, and hear about my week because I've been reading Warming Up by Richard Herring and I'm gonna blog just like him!

Except not as interesting and haven't worked with Stewart Lee.

- On Monday Michelle was here so I got to see her. It was pretty awesome and made we wish I could go to LA even more then I already usually do. It also made me realize that I am the worst girl ever. For somebody who wears skirts every day and wears makeup a lot I really have no idea about any of this stuff. I have no idea what to do with my hair beside 'Dye it black' and sometimes I think that my makeup looks really bad. I hear a lot of from people that I look better without makeup and I wonder if they're saying that I look good naturally or it's just that my makeup is so bad I look better without it. I posted some picture to EGL and got pretty bad reviews yesterday and it's only sort of reinforced this. I know I shouldn't get all over sensitive and sad about what the people on EGL say, but still it just re instills this feeling that I really don't know how to be a girl. I guess I'm just unusual and should embrace that but still. At least I got to see Michelle before she went back to LA and hang out with people I hadn't seen in a while in the park.

- On Tuesday I got to see both Shae and Elaine because they were both in town. It was good because this month I'm sort of trying to see all the people I can before I leave, so it was good to see them. We mostly walked around the park and then went down town. It's weird how time works and I realize that with this kind of stuff. Last August I was hanging around the city with Lauren from Scotland, and now at the same time in a lot of the same places I'm hanging around with Elaine who's from around the same far away place that Lauren's from. Then on Friday I said goodbye to Elaine after a meetup, surrounded by the same people who I was surrounded by the last time I said good bye to her after a meetup. Weird how that works.

- Wednesday I went to the MET with Shae. She was happy because she got to go to basically her favorite place in the city. We saw the Japanese section and I got to see the Buddah of doctors, the city photos from the '50's, and Women In History (which I had already seen but it's was still great even with it's weird ending). It was nice to go to the MET since it was 1 of the places I wanted to go before I left and it was nice to walk around the museum with Shae again.

- Went to the Apple store and saw Michael Cera, Jason Schwartzman, and Edgar Wright talk about Scot Pilgrim! It was pretty amazing and Shae and Elaine got vinyl Scot Pilgrim soundtrack records. I also got to see a few clips from the movie which looks amazing and Michael Cera say 'fuck' which is always mind blowing as he is Canadian and that's always rare for them to do. Afterwards we met a guy named Jackson and walked around with him. I think everybody who was there basically had their minds blown by seeing them all talk and it was just amazing and totally worth camping out in the Apple store for hours (best bit was when Elaine was all 'I work in the Scottish store!' and they realized how awesome she was got down on their knees and bowed to her while the biggest guy there carried in a guy from Dell corporate and beheaded him in front of her for her amusement. And by that I mean gave her a tour of the store).

- Went to the meetup on Thursday and saw people which was good, though at this point I was super peopled out. Still it was good to go to a meetup since it will be my last monthly meetup for a while. That's weird to write. Oh well.

- Somewhere in between all this I watched the 1st 2 seasons of The Guild because my brother got them for Netflix. Some of the characters reminded me way too much of people I knew. So won't be watching that again anytime soon.

- Saw Inception again with Shae. Seeing it when you can actually hear is amazing! I still think it needed more character development but holy crap the writing is great in it! Nolan is so great at this stuff! Makes me want to watch The Prestige again. I mean nothing can beat Bowie as Tesla, but still, Leonardo Dicaprio as a guilt ridden dream con man is close! Also Ellen Page as the dream master is pretty sick! Such a great movie.

- Friday was Rocky Horror nd it was shrill and annoying as always. The movie is great and I like the call backs and all that stuff but at a certain point people are just talking, and yelling, and being loud and annoying. It just becomes noise and I hate it. Also you have to go home at 3 AM afterwards and I just don't know if it's worth it. Maybe I'm just getting older and getting grumpy and just want those kids to get off my lawn more then usual but still, don't know if I'll be going back to Rocky Horror soon. Not that I can what with not being in the city anymore or anything. Still it was good to see it with everybody.

- Saturday was Kyra's birthday party! My sister is another year older and could still kick your ass! We went out to Big Daddy's (weird restaurant where they have all this like 'old time' stuff on the walls and stuff like that) and had a nice time. After that we went to the park near my house and hung around my the Peter Pan statue and talked about the times we've seen ghosts and looked at the river. Afterwards I walked around the city with somebody awesome until like 5 and went home and went to sleep and had nice dreams for the 1st time in a few weeks.

- Went to the dentist. Does Celiac make your teeth bad, LJ, because I feel like Celiac makes your teeth bad.

- Finished a pretty good story. About the page long. I like these little stories. I may do more.

- Got stuff for college today. Sheets, towels, and pillows. Anything else I'll need, LJ?

- Tomorrow I see Kyra and Thursday I see Michele. Busy but not as busy as last week.
29 July 2010 @ 03:13 am
-Holy fuck I actually had to think really hard about what happened yesterday and then I realized that was because I did nothing yesterday. At least nothing I can remember. I was for the past few days sort of sick, and decided to stay inside so I didn't get sicker. I slept in and that basically got rid of it. My throat was still hurting a little and at 1 point I picked up some clothes and had to sit down for a minute I was so tired. I still have a cough, but it's gotten better and I really only have to when I lay down.

- 1 thing that did happen yesterday was that I was facebook checking to make sure nobody had fucked up my farmville shit (just kidding I don't have a farmville. I prefer to spend my time doing more important things like reading porn and watching countless hours of cartoons), and my maybe room mate facebook im'd me. I don't know if this girl is going to be my room mate or not as Shimer's system is run by IIT which until a year ago was all on paper and they still haven't gotten the kinks worked out of their new system, but she was who my transscipt said was going to be my room mate and who I emailed (which lead her to email me 'I'm probably not your room mate because IIT sends the wrong stuff a lot, but we will probably be neighbors.'). The talk was very odd, in which she wouldn't really answer any of my question and said that there are people in Shimer who are into 'free, hippy-style love and aren't into monogamous usual relationships.' So yeah Shimer is a crazy orgy. I'm never gonna get any reading done.

- Today I went to Michele and Alex's and saw their new cats, Rory and Andy. Rory is a longer black and white cat and Andy is a black tiger cat. I liked them and they let me pet them which is more then most cats I've met recently. After that we watched Repo, which is the shitty movie that was made this year that is basically a rip off of the Opera. I'm not a huge fan of the Opera so watching the shitty rip off was particularly painful. I think Michele, who's a big Repo fan, actually had to get up and vomit in rage and fear for humanity at 1 point. The interesting thing about that movie is that when you watch it you can actually hear Jude Law's career crying. Then Alex came home, picked Michele out of her own vomit and tears, and we went to eat.

- Went on facebook again tonight and my maybe room mate facebook im'd me again asking 'Do you have any room mate questions?' and she asked me if I smoked and drank. And I asked her if people put stuff up on their walls in the dorms and what people did at the school besides go to class (read how many DVDs I should bring) and she said 'Lots of stuff.' and I asked her what she did. And she said 'I go to gay bars.'

So that happened.

I've realized now 3 things about my maybe room mate from talking to her:
1. She has little to no sense of humour and is incredibly serious.
2. She tends to group people a lot. I ask her about various things and she tends to say 'there are groups of people who are x, and groups of people who are y'.
3. She likes gay bars.

- Watching Captain EO again makes me realize how much I regret not buying that fucking rainbow shirt.

- I'm trying to figure out what books to bring to college and have no idea. What books should I bring, people?

- Tomorrow I don't really have anything planned. I have a list of people who I want to see before I leave so I should probably take care of that a little bit. I also have to edit the PlainVoldemort interview and start a new story.
27 July 2010 @ 02:01 am
- Pretty much have been too busy to do an entry the past few months. I hate saying that but it's true. I've been traveling and doing college shit and everything has just been crazy. I think that when I start going to college I'll try to do an entry a day. There should be enough happening that there's interesting stuff to write about and not just my usual spewing of shit onto a key board about my life. Also it will be a good way of letting people know I'm still alive. Not that I won't still be on twitter and stuff, but still. Some people aren't on twitter and I don't contact them every day so it will be a good excuse. But yeah a few things that have happened that are important.

- So I went to Disney and Infinitus which was pretty cool. Disney was good and made me realize that as long as you live in a city you really don't know what America looks like. I mean Disney isn't full of assholes but jesus some people are very odd in this country. My favorite are the people who bring there kids into the smoking section of the park. what the fuck? I went with a few people from the group and hung around with Kyra and tortured her with Stewart Lee quotes and making fun of Ron Weasley. We also got to see Liz as Pluto which was amazing! Maybe my favorite part of the whole trip! Something about seeing her was so great. Just seeing Liz even not dressed as a huge dog was awesome and we got to give her the Tonks wand after sitting on it for months and trying to keep it quiet.

Then I went to Infinitus. I have to say it was a pretty good con and after Leaky it seemed really good. The panels were good (the only 1 I disliked was the slash panel which had some weird comments. My favorite was when somebody asked what prop 8 was and then said 'There are no trans people in Harry Potter. The tears that rolled down my face were as hot and burning as acid). The costumes were amazing and seeing everybody was pretty cool. The best part of the con though was when I got to interview PalinVoldemort. The answers they gave were great and it was amazing. I'm gonna write it up for DiscoNap plug and it should be awesome.

I also got to go to Universal and see the Harry Potter theme park. I really had no expectations for it, but when I 1st walked in it was sort of intense. Seeing Hogsmeade and seeing Hogwarts and walking around in that world was pretty cool. It's been in my head for so long and to think that people's love for a book sort of willed this whole park into existence is pretty intense. Everything was just like I imagined it (except for the hour and a half lines to get into the shops!) and it was amazing.

Then I went to Cheri's and slept for a week because holy shit I was tired.

- Somewhere in between this I watched the finale of the world cup during which I went insane and then became sane again it was so long and Kyra didn't give a shit because it wasn't baseball. Seriously though people said that game wasn't exciting but I thought it was pretty excited to see all the babies who were conceived, carried and then born during the duration of that game.

- I decided to go to college at Shimer in Chicago. I just thought that if I stayed in New York it would be the same as it always was. I mean I love New York and hate to leave it, but still, it would be like life as normal and I feel like that has to change at least 1 time in life. I just felt like if I didn't leave I'd always wonder what would have happened if I did, and I don't like that. also it will be nice to get out of the house and away from my mum. It will be sad to leave Dave and everybody in New york but I can come back and see them every holiday and it will be ok. I am sort of nervous about the idea of leaving the house for such a long period of time and having to deal with people but I figure that if it goes bad I could always just beat everybody in my class to death with an ax and then run out and freeze to death in the snows of Chicago like some fucked up college aged version of The Shining. I have to contact my room mate soon which is daunting enough as it is, and get all my stuff together. I also have to do small thing like go to the ear doctor and see if they can something or just break down and give me a hearing aid. At this point both my ears are going and I really need to do something about it. I also have to get new music on my ipod to listen to as all of mine is shit (any suggestions are welcome) and figure out what books I'm bringing with me. I also have to figure out if there are any other Harry Potter fans in Chicago as it's a fear I have that I'll have to see Deathly Hallows alone. I've heard of a few but still I'd like to find a few more and actually get in touch with them.

- Saw Elis the other day. He seemed sad but ok about it. We then went around to toy stores and downtown and were loud and sweary.

- I've started watching the news again. It's good. Still I can feel my blood pressure going up every day. At least I'll die informed. And looking at Rachel Maddow.

- Talking of news I got DiscoNap in the mail a few days ago plug and it's amazing. It also has a story by me in it. So now everybody go follow @DiscoNapzine on twitter so you can learn about the zine and keep up to date and maybe hear about my filthy writing sometimes.

- Tomorrow I'll probably do some writing, and then on Wednesday see Michele and Alex's new kittys! I'm trying to see as many people as possible before I leave and get stuff done so lots of running around this month.

- And now pictures to show the things in this entry!

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15 April 2010 @ 03:02 am
- Oh my god I'm actually doing an entry that's not a month behind the last 1. Try not to go insane with the reality of it. I'm mostly just doing this to post reviews because in the last few days I have seen some awesome TV and read a really good book. As I've said, nothing really interesting happens to me except over a period of time, so I have to save up my interesting stories. So this entry won't be as action packed as the others. I think in this entry there will be like 1 awesome story and a few good jokes. Maybe like 2. I don't know. We'll have to see.

- I just had a whole paragraph here about the dinner I went to with a bunch of wizard rock people the other day, but it got deleted so I don't care. Just know I basically learned that I know nothing about wizard rock or the people in it. I'm basically the old man of fandom and I'm ok with that. I don't want Infinitus to be a be wizard rock con, but if it is it's ok because I do have other stuff to do in Florida like look for a job and see ispeaktroll . So it's ok. Still getting older is weird and I think the 2 things that show you're getting older are music and the people around you. There is nothing like hearing a bunch of people talk about bands you know nothing about and then having someone near your age introduce himself and the lady next to him as 'Hi my name is, blank and this is my wife, blank.' to make you realize you are an adult, even if you do get really excited about Doctor Who and have a bunch of action figures on your shelves. But then I've kind of felt like an adult for a while now, or at least since I started taking care of my brother. It's just weird that the world is realizing it now.

- I saw David Levithan and John Green at Boarders a few days ago. The place was swamped making it about 100 degrees in there and I had to stand behind this kid who was like 6 feet or something. Even so it was cool. They did a reading of each Will's chapter and it was really cool hearing them do the voices and stuff for each character. I also realized on the way there that John Green's Will looks like David Levithan and David Levithan's will looks like John Green which was kind of cute. After they read people got into line to get their books signed. I heard that Maureen Johnson was somewhere so I went looking for her to kill time and found her behind a few book cases surrounded by a growing crowd of people. I waited on a much shorter line and got a copy of The Catcher In The Rye signed by her and then went back to wait to get on the John Green and David Levithan line. It actually went pretty fast and they were really nice about signing the book, even though they seemed kind of confused when I told them I wasn't the person they were signing it for and told them I was on a quest, which seemed to clear things up. I haven't been to a book signing in a while so I have forgotten how crowed they can get. It was nice to see writers read their own stuff though. Especially writers I like and don't know the dirtiest and most shocking of secrets about. That's always good.

- And now it's time for GLEE! Cut for spoilers!
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- Saw Doctor Who. I liked it. Space Whales are awesome. I like it that they're still doing stuff with kids. The writing is strong and I like Amy Pond with the Doctor so far. Also I like it that they're stressing how old he is, which I was pretty sure they were going to do. I like the new Doctor and I like the way the season is going so far.

- Did a bunch of stuff for colleges today, even though they still haven't sent me anything back. Some of them say it's because they're waiting for my GED which I don't get because all the other people applying for college at this time don't have degrees. I'm so tired of writing essay for them. Today I put zombies in 1 just to make it more interesting. I also sent a school Hey Look It's Lu because I love that story and if they don't like a story where Lucien Carr and David Kammerer are the main characters I don't want to go to that school anyway. At least 1 of the school was in Florida. At this point I just want to hear back from some of them, whether it's yes or no. I will be so pissed if Shimer is the only school I hear from. Come on, schools, if the stoners over there can handle it you can too! I am tired of this shit.

- Liz keeps sending me Disney stuff. There are actually a lot of jobs I'd want to do there.

- I tried to write the Will Grayson Will Grayson review tonight, but I think my eyes are going to fall out of my head if I do that. I'll work on it more tomorrow, but I like the beginning so at least it's not all crap I think. I'll have to see tomorrow when I rereading it.
06 April 2010 @ 09:00 pm
- Once again it has been forever since I've done an entry. I just don't think my life is that interesting day to day, so I think I sort of save stuff up until I have a lot of stuff to write about that is actually worth while. In the end though I think the journal entries are pretty boring. I don't know how many people read them, but I feel like it may be only about 2 or so people. Still I think that's sort of what an LJ is for. Either you're a well known person writing about your current projects for your fans, or your all the other people who are writing for their friends, but mostly themselves. Writers are pretty selfish. Even when they're writing something for someone else, they're still doing it to amuse themselves.

- I went to Florida in March and spent most of the month there. It was awesome because I got to see ispeaktroll and stay with her! We did pretty normal stuff mostly like go out to eat, and read and go to book stores, but that's sort of the stuff I like best so it was awesome. We also went to Down Town Disney (which is near Disney, but not actually in the park and mostly has stores and lots of people) for our 5 month anniversary, and went into the biggest Disney store in the world! ispeaktroll got micky ears, which look pretty spiffy, and we went to the Lego store which was pretty boss. I also realized that books in Florida are dangerously cheap. They have places where new hard back YA is like $3.00. If I moved there I would have to get a job at Disney just so I could pay my book addiction. And for food and rent and stuff. When I was leaving I was really sad. I think I sat in the little airport chair for like 45 minutes (my plane was delayed as per usual)just staring at the wall. When I went back to New York nothing was the same. I still like New York but everything seems sort of dull. I do all the same stuff here all the time, and even though I love it maybe it's time for a change. even Gregory Corso lived other places in his life, and he loved New York more then anything. Whenever I tell people this I always either get them going 'You should do it!' or that weird, half turn of the head and silence people do when they don't want to say what they're thinking. I just think people can't stay in the same place forever, especially not the place they were born. Gregory Corso was born in New York, but in death he lays in Rome. I don't know. All I know is I miss ispeaktroll like hell every day even with phone calls and texting and it sucks, and being with her is pretty much the most awesome thing ever.

- Saw Kyra and Liz yesterday. Liz got girl scout cookies and then we went to eat. I think we had mistakenly made ourselves invisible because the waitress didn't come until 30 minutes after we had been there. After that we went to The Strand and Liz was bored while Kyra and I looked at graphic novels. She wants to start reading them, and I have to say I was sort of at a loss as to what she should start with. Maybe Calvin and Hobbes? What do you think, flist and other epople who read this? Then we walked Kyra to rehearsal and met her actor friends, who make all the writer friend I have look a bit scruffy and too small for their clothes. Liz and I went from there to this weird new goth shop down town and looked at hair dyes. So far the possible ideas are red, dark, almost black blue and maybe green again. Also some people have said purple but I don't know. This is a hard choice. Harder then all the choices Solomon ever had to make! Remember when he had to figure out which women that baby belonged to? That was nothing compared to what colour to dye my hair! I just know I don't want it pink. As much as I like pink hair, I just don't think it's me. I also don't really want green or blue again. I just don't know what would be good for me. Maybe I should just go back to black. I just don't want it to be blond anymore!

- I started my new writing project. It's gonna be a horror story, but I'm slowly building it up to it and starting it as pretty normal. I'm doing it all over LJ, so it should be an interesting exercise. Either way I just don't want it to be super repetitive of all the other horror stuff I'm reading right now. It will be interesting to write an all, or mostly, girl cast, which I've never done before. The last girl I wrote was Shakti Jones in the Torchwood 4 thing I wrote, but that was a while ago. If it doesn't come out well I guess I can just take it all down and it's not like anyone will see it anyway so whatever.

- I saw Alice In Wonderland. Sucked. Saw Avatar. Sucked more. What the hell is up with movie now adays? You know it's bad when Diary Of A Wimpy Kid is the only movie I want to see that's coming out (though that movie does look awesome). I'm sort of afraid to see the Runaways movie as I'm afraid something in my mind will snap and I'll run out of the movie thearter and into traffic. And I'd rather do that in the privacy of my own home.

- And now because I have to do it, my thoughts on the new Doctor Who. A cut to protect you from spoilers!
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- I tried to make a Bunka doll the other day. It didn't turn out very well. I may need to get a doll making book of some kind. I feel like it would be easier if I had a sewing machine, but oh well. Any way it's good to be making things again. Even if making them takes a long time. Though not as long as writing this entry did.
29 March 2010 @ 02:43 am
1. Which book has been on your shelves the longest?
Green Eggs And Ham by Doctor Suess.
2. What is your current read, your last read and the book you’ll read next?
Currently reading: Suite Scarlet by Maureen Johnson, The Man Who Was Thursday by C.K. Chesterfield, Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets by J.K. Rowling.
Last read: Spud by John Howard van de Ruit.
Book I'll read next: Charmed Thirds by Megan McCafferty.
3. What book did everyone like and you hated?
Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins.
4. Which book do you keep telling yourself you’ll read, but you probably won’t?
Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace.
5. Which book are you saving for “retirement?”
All of Tolkien's histories.
6. Last page: read it first or wait till the end?
Wait until the end. I DON'T WANT TO RUIN IT!
7. Acknowledgements: waste of ink and paper or interesting aside?
Waste of paper. Acknowledge people on your own time, authors!
8. Which book character would you switch places with?
Owen from Just Listen.
9. Do you have a book that reminds you of something specific in your life (a person, a place, a time)?
Maybe Harry Potter. I don't know.
10. Name a book you acquired in some interesting way.
Skellig by David Almond. Elis made me do a bunch a tasks before giving it to me.
11. Have you ever given away a book for a special reason to a special person?
I give ispeaktroll books alot that I think she'll like, or I think are good.
12. Which book has been with you to the most places?
Gasoline by Gregory Corso.
13. Any “required reading” you hated in high school that wasn’t so bad ten two years later?
The Holy Teaching of Vimalakirti by Vimalakirti. My dad gave it to me and I didn't really like it, but rereading it it was really good.
14. What is the strangest item you’ve ever found in a book?
I've found a few cool letters in books. Mostly to people giving the books to other people.
15. Used or brand new?
16. Stephen King: Literary genius or opiate of the masses?
I don't know if Stephan King is that litereary, but he's a good horror writer.
17. Have you ever seen a movie you liked better than the book?
18. Conversely, which book should NEVER have been introduced to celluloid?
Eragon. Awful book, awful movie.
19. Have you ever read a book that's made you hungry, cookbooks being excluded from this question?
Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson. Never have I wanted a character to eat more then in that book.
20. Who is the person whose book advice you’ll always take?
Maybe B? He seems to read pretty good books. Also Elis, as he is not much of a reader and if he reads something it must be good.
05 February 2010 @ 03:42 am
- Holy crap, I'm doing a 2nd journal entry in the same month! Try not to fall back onto your fainting couches in shock. I feel like with this one I'll be more back in the groove, unlike the last one where it sounded like someone who had just gotten out of a coma and learning to speak to people again. I can't even reread it. I didn't even talk about going to Florida because I felt like I was too out of practice to really talk about it. But yeah I went to Florida to see ispeaktroll for a week or so last month, and it was great. We mostly hung out at her house or drove around, which is pretty much the stuff I like to do best, but mostly importantly I got to see her, which was awesome! I can't wait until I can see her again, and I have to say it makes time very odd. I can't believe it's already the 5th, but that still seems so far away from March. It's like each day comes and goes so fast, but it seems like there are so many of them. But really it isn't a lot and it will be March and I'll be happy. I guess that's how times works when you get older. When you're young days seem to go on forever. At the moment it tends to vary. I wonder if when I get older it will go even faster. Like if a year will be really short to me. Is that better, or just different? Will I miss having more time, or be thankful I have less because it makes me realize how little I really have? I guess I'll just have to see.

- I'm going to California soon. I'm staying with my mum's friend, so I'll have to watch my brother a lot. I'm going to San Francisco to visit schools, but mostly it's just an excuse to go to The Beat Museum and take pictures for Cheri. I also feel this is one of the only places I could live besides New York, so I guess I should visit. Too bad I don't know anyone there. Every person I know in California is in LA. I can't even see my grandma. Don't I sound like a little orphan under the stairs. A little grandparent orphan. Still a little out of whack with the writing.

- Late to the party, but I feel like I should post this on LJ too, Sarah Palin is angry at Rahm Emanuel! I love this crazy shit! My theory is that she'll be dead in a few days or so. Rahm Emanuel doesn't leave loose ends. http://www.examiner.com/x-15931-Chicago-Political-Buzz-Examiner~y2010m2d2-Sarah-Palin-demands-Rahm-Emanuel-be-fired-for-hating-all-special-needs-children-especially-Trig

- Scariest piece of dialog ever tonight:
Me: My brother is such a freak. He told me to yiff myself the other day. I blame the internet.
A: Obviously you're a good influence.
K: You're a good mum.
Me: Well he is a Hufflepuff wait what?
A: Aw.
K: Aw.
This is why I don't want to have kids, because people think I already have one!

- I made a Jayne hat and was going to start a Slytherin scarf today, but the yarn got all messed up. I guess I'll have to go tomorrow and get more yarn.

- a bunch of people told me I needed to quit smoking today. I am vaguely torn.

- I saw Avatar last week because my mum wanted to see if. It was pretty mediocre. All the scifi cliches are there, The religion and spiritual beliefs are totally stolen from the Native Americans, and the whole thing with the earth being dead, and no one wanting to go back to it or do anything to save it was pretty sad. But the fact that that is the highest grossing movie, besides Gone With The Wind, in the world makes me weep for humanity. I mean, is anyone going to really remember Avatar in five years? I mean people remembered Titanic, but not well. It's just some movie that was big. Who cares? It doesn't change anything, it doesn't really move anyone, it's not an important or original or timeless story. It just makes me realize people are still kind of stupid. Even if maybe they're getting a little smarter.

- Got paid $500 finally for watching my brother. God damn it is good to have money.
29 January 2010 @ 07:03 pm
- I've read 8 books this year and most of them have been YA. Last year I read a lot of older books and sort of fell away from YA because for a while, they got pretty craptastic. Most of them are about vampires, and how a corpse is the only thing that can give you true love. And as much as I love to read about young girls fucking dead things that are 100 plus years old, I'm not really hot for these books. But a lot of the stuff I've read recently has been pretty good, and I sort of like it that werewolves are becoming popular (which is the same thing I said when vampire were becoming popular, so I dunno), so maybe YA is getting better. Either way, I'm glad the stuff about gay teens has died down. I hate that shit!

- And talking of books, J.D. Salinger has died (which you probably already know), and so has Howard Zinn (which you probably already know if you're a history nerd, or follow my tweets). There's a lot of stuff I could write about Salinger. I have a lot of meta sort of stuff on him and his writing and why people love him or hate him, but I'm a day late and I hate when people wax poetic on news stories that are over a day old. But I will say this, can people please stop hating him because they disliked Catcher In The Rye? Catcher In The Rye is not only not his only book, but also his first book. So while I don't really care if you dislike Salinger, judging the whole of his work on Catcher In The Rye is sort of like judging Harry Potter on Philosopher's Stone. As for Howard Zinn, he's probably my favorite historian (thought now my favorite living historian is probably Sarah Vowell), and I was pretty upset when he died. Someone asked in the comments section of an J.D. Salinger article 'Why does it feel like everyone is dying?' Because we're old, and our heroes are older.

- Also I just want to say, the fact I have a 'favorite historian' (I also have a favorite scientist) makes me even nerdier.

- Michele and Alex are gonna get married. In general I'm not surprised. I sort of never stressed about her being able to come into the country, because I knew one day, even if it ended up being in a few years, they would get married and she'd be able to come. I'm not into marriage, but I'm not against other people getting married if it makes them happy (I actually think weddings can be some of the nicest parties). I'm really happy for them, since they seem to be in love and are both awesome people. In a semi related note I'm excited that soon(ish?) Michele will be able to move here.

- Went ice skating last weekend. It was the first time in a year and I was still pretty good, which always surprises me. But this also leads me to another point which is it's so fucking cold!

- I'm studying for the GED and it's going pretty well. This shit is pretty easy, but I just want to brush up on it. Also if anyone's read any of these tests you'll know all the weird ass propaganda that's in these tests. At one point while talking about Communism, Capitalism and Socialism one of the answers to the question 'What can you tell about these differing ideas from the definitions given?' was 'People are more unhappy when under Communism'. I love this crazy shit.

- What the fuck is the ipad? Seriously, can anyone can tell me why I would want to waste $500 on this, which as far as I can figure is a lap top without the keyboard and top, or an over sized iphone? Jesus Apple continues to make unnecessary products and people buy them because we create need for them! No one needs the ipad, but we think we do because Apple tell us we do by telling us the thing we have isn't as good. Jesus Christ have I mentioned I hate Apple?

- I should do LJ entries more often, but it's just hard to think of stuff to write about. I know I always say that, but still, I think I should. I mean, see how this closer is? I'm out of practice. Jesus I'm gonna go smoke.
12 November 2009 @ 12:40 am
- I finished the SATs finally. I never have to take it again and it's so good to get that done with. At the same time I feel like the Alice in Clamp. At the end of each of her stories it would say 'Never ends', which I guess is kind of a good thing but I just have all this work I need to do. Now that SATs are over I still have to write college essays, then interviews, then wait to see where I get in. I don't even want to think about college it's self. I shouldn't get so stressed out about this but still. I just wish it was over. I just want to go to school and live my life like a person, or at least a student.

- Have I mentioned the dreams have come back? Here's an awesome one. Me leaving the house and my brother crying telling me he can't find stuff and me driving away while he runs after me on a dirt road that looks kind of like the farm. What does that mean? Guilt is fun. Why did I have kids? Oh right, I didn't. Haha oh god I am screwed.

- I'm seriously thinking about getting a job. I'm not sure if I have the time with all the travel I need to do, but there's a book store I like on the west side that's pretty small that might be nice to work at. The people there tend to sit around reading when they're not ringing people up, and dress however, so I feel like they're not too strict in manner or appearance. I also really need money. I'm tired or living off my parents for things like cigarettes and clothing and bullshit. I've always felt weird taking money from them, but could get rid of the thought by saying I was a kid, or with the fact my mum use to borrow a lot of money from me. But now I can't really say I'm a kid as an excuse and my mum is always going to borrow money from me, so I might as well get use to it before she starts doing it to my brother. I also need it for travel stuff. The bus is pretty cheap, especially if I'm going to Maryland to visit Denmark, or somewhere like that. In the end I just need to stop being lazy and do it. A job isn't that big a deal. Except when it is. But still, everyone (or most everyone I guess) does it and still keeps up with travel and stuff.

- I need letters of recommendation. Obviously not everyone who reads my journal can give me one, but at this point I'll take anything. Did you work with me at any point? Great. Have I helped you with a project? Awesome. Am I amazing, brilliant, and otherwise totally outrageous? No, but your lies are your's and I won't disprove them. If you can write please write me a letter. I need about three from different people, but even one would be good for some schools. Not to pimp on here, but yeah it would be awesome.

- Cleaned an assload today. All my clothes are pretty much off the floor. Now I just need to pick up my books. My shelves are pretty unsorted, so I need to work on my new system. Just need to remember not to put the vampire books next to the werewolf books next to my Jane Austin, as they tend to fight over her.

- Yeah it's a Twilight reference. And a nerdy, meta one at that! One day I'm gonna write Twilight meta and no one can stop me. Then I'll give a presentation at Twinkle, the Twilight con, and it will awesome. Everyone will be there and I'll hang with Kstew and get high with Rpatts. And I'll say 'Kstew, (yes I can call her that because by that time we will be good buddies) why so angry all the time?' And she'll take a pull of bourbon and gaze at me with her blood shot, old, fucked up, Elizabeth Báthory eyes and we will laugh because we know all the secret of the world like some tiny chest of silver and gold boxes we hold in our hands like light.

- Went out to dinner with Jon and Van tonight. Van says we need a name. She says we should be the Yorkville Society. Jon says No, he is in enough groups. Later we get to my house and she says she's glad the Yorkville Society got to converge tonight. 'Yes that's the name, that's it!' she says. I hear her laughing as she walks away down the street.

- Tomorrow I'm going to the library's book cellar to see if they have some stuff. That's all I have planned for now. Hopefully more will happen and I'll get some writing done. I want to do my NaNo story, but Lucien Carr keeps pulling me back into that yellow room, wanting me to write for him.

- There are people I miss and people I want to see. Sometimes I wish I could trade people in the city for other people. Bring them here so they'll be happy. To bring them closer to people they need to be near in order to be content. To see them if I want. To keep them safe. But they live outside the city, or outside the state, or outside the country. It's hard, because they all live in my heart too. But at least I know they're there. At least I know, at least for now, they're safe. Or hope so.
20 October 2009 @ 06:39 pm
Submissions for Infinitus are open! I am so excited! I'm going to submit a few papers, and also want to do a panel on Harry Potter as future lit, and the queer perspective in Harry Potter (because there has to be one every year). So who's in on this with me? I need people!